inside my neurospicy brain
literally a listicle, I am not sorry
random words in Cymraeg (Welsh): ond (but), pannas (parsnips), archfarchnad (supermarket, also what the hell lol it seems like this should be a German word); this is Duolingo’s fault
at least one song but only a fragment of it; also I don’t usually recall the words, it’s just sort of the mouth noises you make when you’re trying to sing a song but you don’t exactly know the lyrics. these are the ones that keep chaotically bouncing around in my head:
Righteous rageSharpened every blade and sword
Of those we once adored
We have gone beyond
The point of no return
No longer an in-between
We'll let it burn
Just as the rivers run dry
Your fires will die
And all you hold dear
Shall slowly disappear
What has been
Now is just black and green
Through the smoke glints of steel
Fight for your king or queen
selections of the list of things I need to get done today, although that list is more of a wishlist because it’s almost certainly out of the question to get it all done in one day
anxiety and self-defeat because of how #3 makes me feel
okay but the Cymraeg word for policeman is so funny because it sounds like ‘head-ass’: heddwas. how can you not laugh
did I finish the thing
wait. what thing? was there a thing??
checks email again
HUNGRY; already forgot, what is food? food is distracting
why don’t I feel good. did I take my meds. wait. I forgot to drink this water. WAIT. I forgot to eat this food. OH MY GOD WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THIS
rinse, repeat #10
need to listen to some ASMR because my brain is overdoing it
none of these are working
checks email again
~* existential dread moment *~
*meds alarm* what? already?
my neck hurts
checks email again
see #3
urge to play a video game that I don’t have the spoons to play, but I have to START the game otherwise the brain itch won’t go away
disappointment that I cannot play this game that is for some reason Extremely Important
checks email again
SLEEP
— Nix
Number 10 ðŸ˜